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      Coat:  FENDI   Credit: Anda Simona Roman      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


       i invite you to say out loud   to yourself   or to others   a crossing thought   any thought      nOW, what emotions did you feel while having that thought?   Was it anger? Happiness? Inspirational perhaps?   Did you get horny?      Was it something like  “Im not good enough”  “I’m not worth much”  “I’m not that special”  “I have issues”      or perhaps something like  “I love you”      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


       What do you think about when the lights go out?     

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


    

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


    

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


     Now these thoughts  in fact these words   have more power than you could possibly imagine   because our thoughts are ultimately linked to emotions  and emotions  are nothing more than mere nervous circuits releasing chemicals through our bodies   but yet   YET   you’re addicted to your emotions and you don’t even know it   You’re addicted to putting yourself down  You’re addicted to your past - your memories   “Oh back then I had it good”  “Oh what if I would have done that or this instead”   “I shouldn’t have done that”  “I shouldn’t have had sex and gotten so drunk”  You get the gist   you’re lost  you’re stressed   and not to mention  stressed about the puniest and most trivial things ever   you overthink  you panic even more  you’re just not present   you’re not “here”  maybe you go on instagram   then get sad that   “wow she’s hot. I wish I had her body”  “Damn, I want that many followers”   but  why?        

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


    

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


       Can you control your mind or does your mind control you?     

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


    

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


     you are placebo     

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


    

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


     do you trust yourself or are you at war with yourself?     

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


     Am i not my emotions?       

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


      

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


                 

  

  	
       
      
         
          
             
                  
             
          

          

         
      
       
    

  


                why?  because many of us are not  intelligent  yet.   many are not woke.      Ok     What does it mean to be intelligent?   You might argue that there is a difference between being “smart” versus being “intelligent”   however is that truly the case?   fuck that  is that the right question?      No.   Have you heard of the phrase “emotional intelligence”?   What does that mean?   Perhaps you’ll say emotional intelligence is about not falling prey to your emotions   aka  not being a train wreck (yolo)   but  let me be the devil’s advocate   and tell you   that’s not the case      The paradox of our reality matrix is as follows:  The “cosmic you” or simply put, your consciousness   is the nucleus of your reality   everything else  anything that is matter   (that includes your brain)   is and are simply quantic probabilities     okOk  what does that mean?   Well, emotions are nothing more other than nervous circuits that release certain chemicals that out body then becomes addicted to  which means  you    and your  brain , are two separate things   ergo   you , your consciousness, the cosmic you   and emotions  are two separate things      From a neurological perspective   you become the things that you think about in a repeated pattern and the object of your attention   so  for example  if you hate/ dislike someone  and repeatedly talk trash   that becomes the object of your attention   and you (your body not your consciousness) become biologically addicted to the chemicals released in your brain of feeling small, unworthy maybe betrayed  because that’s the root of hatred   all within the subconscious however (because who would want to feel that willingly)  because the act of putting someone down is done so in an effort to feel “big”  but  if you do feel “big”   emphasis on “feel”  then why put in the effort for that action?  so  consciously   you become addicted to feeling "big"      The link between this cosmic you   and your brain   the part of you that resides within this dimension and reality matrix  is located within the frontal lobe of our brain   which was the last to properly evolve   that’s the area that’s in charge of seeing your future  having dreams  controlling your behavior      and here is where I dare say   and contradict many   that yes   YES  humans are capable of change   in fact, us humans, poses this unique advanced biotechnology of being able to change ourselves constantly   (Nietzsche and Dispenza agree)  and your frontal lobe is exactly the place that is able to do it      If we look at the cinematic scene  movies such as “Split”  present this concept  in a subtle manner      Our main character had a rare multi personality disorder   Dissociative identity disorder  yet by the end of it   he/they manages to evolve — to physically change his body   but the interesting aspect is that his original personality   the one before the trauma   wouldn’t have been able to conduct the physical change   only his two aggressive and ultimately “strong” personalities did       A key line in “Split” was   “You’re not worthy of life if you haven’t suffered”   hence the protagonist’s obsession with those who haven’t suffered   now besides the link with the character’s own trauma/ suffering   the deeper layer to this line has to do with what  animates us    which brings me back to my first point   what are you reoccurring thoughts? where does your mind usually go? what’s your usual emotional state? are you usually calm and happy? or stressed, numbed and sad? Or do you just feel nothing?      Sadly enough   most of you will resonate   whether consciously or subconsciously, with the latter two options  because it’s easier and more comforting to draw “power” from suffering, from being low   because that’s the fuel our society gives us   we’re surrounded by media/ news outlets that solely focus on negative news   we’re surrounded by people who overwork themselves and are ultimately always stressed  we’re surrounded by people who no longer live in this dimension but in the virtual one  we’re surrounded by horror/ thriller/ explicit movies and photos   that’s what we’re used too   and if you think that doesn’t affect you   then think again and wake up   because staying calm and maintaining a constant happy mood as to draw power from it  is hard   because we’re not used to that   so why tf are we so used to feeling like shit and seeing shit?   why do we normalize that?   why not be used to feeling good?      change is possible   start drawing power from your ups not your downs   find a balance between the two   Recommended readings  Joe Dispenza, "Train Your Brain - Strategies and techniques of mental transformation"  Joe Dispenza, "You are Placebo"  Nietzsche, "Beyond Good and Evil"  Paulo Coelho, "The Valkyries" 

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i invite you to say out loud 

to yourself 

or to others 

a crossing thought 

any thought 

 

nOW, what emotions did you feel while having that thought? 

Was it anger? Happiness? Inspirational perhaps? 

Did you get horny? 

 

Was it something like

“Im not good enough”

“I’m not worth much”

“I’m not that special”

“I have issues” 

 

or perhaps something like

“I love you” 

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What do you think about when the lights go out?

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Now these thoughts

in fact these words 

have more power than you could possibly imagine 

because our thoughts are ultimately linked to emotions

and emotions

are nothing more than mere nervous circuits releasing chemicals through our bodies 

but yet 

YET 

you’re addicted to your emotions and you don’t even know it 

You’re addicted to putting yourself down

You’re addicted to your past - your memories 

“Oh back then I had it good”

“Oh what if I would have done that or this instead” 

“I shouldn’t have done that”

“I shouldn’t have had sex and gotten so drunk”

You get the gist 

you’re lost

you’re stressed 

and not to mention

stressed about the puniest and most trivial things ever 

you overthink

you panic even more

you’re just not present 

you’re not “here”

maybe you go on instagram 

then get sad that 

“wow she’s hot. I wish I had her body”

“Damn, I want that many followers” 

but

why? 

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Can you control your mind or does your mind control you?

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you are placebo

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do you trust yourself or are you at war with yourself?

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Am i not my emotions?

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why?

because many of us are not intelligent yet. 

many are not woke. 

 

Ok

 

What does it mean to be intelligent? 

You might argue that there is a difference between being “smart” versus being “intelligent” 

however is that truly the case? 

fuck that

is that the right question? 

 

No. 

Have you heard of the phrase “emotional intelligence”? 

What does that mean? 

Perhaps you’ll say emotional intelligence is about not falling prey to your emotions 

aka

not being a train wreck (yolo) 

but

let me be the devil’s advocate 

and tell you 

that’s not the case 

 

The paradox of our reality matrix is as follows:

The “cosmic you” or simply put, your consciousness 

is the nucleus of your reality 

everything else

anything that is matter 

(that includes your brain) 

is and are simply quantic probabilities

 

okOk

what does that mean? 

Well, emotions are nothing more other than nervous circuits that release certain chemicals that out body then becomes addicted to

which means you 

and your brain, are two separate things 

ergo

you, your consciousness, the cosmic you 

and emotions

are two separate things 

 

From a neurological perspective 

you become the things that you think about in a repeated pattern and the object of your attention 

so

for example

if you hate/ dislike someone

and repeatedly talk trash 

that becomes the object of your attention 

and you (your body not your consciousness) become biologically addicted to the chemicals released in your brain of feeling small, unworthy maybe betrayed

because that’s the root of hatred 

all within the subconscious however (because who would want to feel that willingly)

because the act of putting someone down is done so in an effort to feel “big”

but

if you do feel “big” 

emphasis on “feel”

then why put in the effort for that action?

so

consciously 

you become addicted to feeling "big" 

 

The link between this cosmic you 

and your brain 

the part of you that resides within this dimension and reality matrix

is located within the frontal lobe of our brain 

which was the last to properly evolve 

that’s the area that’s in charge of seeing your future

having dreams

controlling your behavior 

 

and here is where I dare say 

and contradict many 

that yes 

YES

humans are capable of change 

in fact, us humans, poses this unique advanced biotechnology of being able to change ourselves constantly 

(Nietzsche and Dispenza agree)

and your frontal lobe is exactly the place that is able to do it 

 

If we look at the cinematic scene

movies such as “Split”

present this concept

in a subtle manner 

 

Our main character had a rare multi personality disorder 

Dissociative identity disorder

yet by the end of it 

he/they manages to evolve — to physically change his body 

but the interesting aspect is that his original personality 

the one before the trauma 

wouldn’t have been able to conduct the physical change 

only his two aggressive and ultimately “strong” personalities did  

 

A key line in “Split” was 

“You’re not worthy of life if you haven’t suffered” 

hence the protagonist’s obsession with those who haven’t suffered 

now besides the link with the character’s own trauma/ suffering 

the deeper layer to this line has to do with what animates us

which brings me back to my first point 

what are you reoccurring thoughts? where does your mind usually go? what’s your usual emotional state? are you usually calm and happy? or stressed, numbed and sad? Or do you just feel nothing? 

 

Sadly enough 

most of you will resonate 

whether consciously or subconsciously, with the latter two options

because it’s easier and more comforting to draw “power” from suffering, from being low 

because that’s the fuel our society gives us 

we’re surrounded by media/ news outlets that solely focus on negative news 

we’re surrounded by people who overwork themselves and are ultimately always stressed

we’re surrounded by people who no longer live in this dimension but in the virtual one

we’re surrounded by horror/ thriller/ explicit movies and photos 

that’s what we’re used too 

and if you think that doesn’t affect you 

then think again and wake up 

because staying calm and maintaining a constant happy mood as to draw power from it

is hard 

because we’re not used to that 

so why tf are we so used to feeling like shit and seeing shit? 

why do we normalize that? 

why not be used to feeling good? 

 

change is possible 

start drawing power from your ups not your downs 

find a balance between the two 

Recommended readings

Joe Dispenza, "Train Your Brain - Strategies and techniques of mental transformation"

Joe Dispenza, "You are Placebo"

Nietzsche, "Beyond Good and Evil"

Paulo Coelho, "The Valkyries"