Photos, Edits & Styling & Concept: Alexandra Roman
PART I - NIL ADMIRARI
Idem velle, idem nolle, ea demum firma amicitia
(To want the same and not want the same, makes a firm friendship)
as quoted by Sallust in the Catiline.
What a shameful intrigue as Kierkegaard makes an interesting interpretation of the such when put in relation to one’s self. Are you your own friend?
One gets bored eating of silver
so then one eats of gold
One is Europamüde
so then one goes to America
“One burns half of Rome, to get an idea of the configuration of Troy”
An idem per idem
It’s always the same.
PART II - LETHE
Whether the Lethe river of Hades flows amongst us, I do not know. For those who don’t know though, the Lethe river was one of the five rivers of the Underworld, infamous for its properties of bestowing oblivion and forgetfulness upon those who drank from it.
Regardless, I am tempted to make one claim: we are oblivious of that which rules us. Whether it’s your heart, your mind, your responsibilities, your faith or your morals — you are lead by one or all of them.
Like when you keep going on dates with different people
and you feel they may be different
and maybe some are
either smarter than the rest
more attractive than the rest
more spontaneous perhaps
at the end of the day
regardless of these minute differences
they’re all the same when it comes to the common thread of
emotional unavailability for example
or maybe with every relationship
regardless of what type of relationship that is
you’re the one that’s hoping that
maybe this time you're the that will be different
that maybe this time
you’ll be the one that’s changing
and will be more open and vulnerable
and won’t self-sabotage
yet by the end of all
you’re the same as in every other
or when you keep making new friends
and some may be more supportive than others
or more resourceful
they share the common thread of an inferiority complex
and keep putting you through endless cycles of senseless competitiveness
like putting you down through small yet hurtful comments
You live in repetitive cycles and patterns lead by these false ideals. Ideals ingrained from either mass corporations, religion, family, blind love, ethics…
You are doomed to repeat yourself.
Now I completely understand the premise: “change happens all the time, so how are we repetitive?”, but, although change may occur, it is only a change of lanes, not of paradigms. As Camus put it in “The Myth of Sisyphus” (man doomed for eternity to roll a stone up a mountain, amounting to a meaningless existence), we too as Sisyphus, are doomed to echos and instant replays.
So my question is,
can we escape our patterns and cycles?
or are we doomed to repeat ourselves for eternity?
PART III — PROMETHEUS
Fire and blind hope were Prometheus’ dubious gifts to us. We hope that our lives will amount to something; we hope we’ll find our soulmate; we hope we’ll be successful; we hope things will be okay; we hope that the next partner we have will be different; that the next friend we’ll have will be more supportive, etc
at the end of the day
because, all of the things that make up our lives
fit within our carefully designed patterns.
And so we tattoo ourselves blindly with different meanings and objections, and then wash ourselves of them and tattoo new ones everyday. But the past will always dictate the future, and every new tattoo we make, will always dictate the next one we’ll wash away.